Will I struggle for survival this year or find strength and grow stronger?
This past year is somewhat of a blur. It is as if with each month that passed, the earth spun faster and faster.
A lot of circumstances requiring much thought and prayer were nestled in each spin. Medical uncertainty, medical emergencies, rebellion, regret, and many deaths are just a few of the storms that blew into the lives of my family and friends. As a wife, mother and friend I felt the most inadequacy I can remember ever feeling. Overwhelmed by the thoughts of the “What if’s?” and the “What then’s?”. The depth of hurt and consequences that were happening and could happen seemed to echo in my mind endlessly leaving me drained and spent.
During the last months of the year I was definitely in “Survival Mode.” I coasted the latter months on prayers of survival and protection hoping we would dodge another issue.
As the New Year has begun, I have rested in the calmness and offered many thanks to God. God prodded the thought of having another option than simply SURVIVAL. Would I focus on surviving the circumstances that come my way over this next year, or would I focus on strengthening myself spiritually, mentally, and physically?
To be honest, I ended the 2014 year with my emotions, fears, and my regrets higher that my faith.
God has blessed me with a few weeks to breathe from issues to battle. During this reprieve I have asked myself “Do you want to continue to survive the storms and be a weary mess afterwards or be stronger after they pass?” He seemed to give me a plan of action.
This is not a resolution list by any means; it is a strengthening plan to put into action. I know if I do not seek areas to strengthen myself in the Lord, my survival will someday leave me too weak to combat storms that will come against me. The reality of that probability has hit closer to home than I like to admit.
My strengthening plan:
1.) Abide in Christ
4 Abide in me, and I in you. As the branch cannot bear fruit by itself, unless it abides in the vine, neither can you, unless you abide in me. 5 I am the vine; you are the branches. Whoever abides in me and I in him, he it is that bears much fruit, for apart from me you can do nothing.
I will strive to get up early, stay up late, drop responsibilities, take a day off or whatever it takes to spend time hearing from God and refueling by His grace and love. I will dedicate time to memorizing scripture to hide in my heart when my storm is louder than His voice.
2.) Acknowledge Christ
“My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” 2 Corinthians 12:9 Giving Jesus Christ the Lordship of my life each and every day settles the matter each morning before I start taking control. Thankful acknowledgment for His grace in my life, which is never ending for me (and those around me), helps me do just this. It’s by that grace and submission I have the blessings in my life.
3.) Adhere to His Plan
I heard Ron Dunn share once “Good and evil run on parallel tracks; and usually arrive at the same time.” I have found this to be especially true this past year. Whatever my circumstances I will adhere to the Sovern will of God and trust His presence and love through everything good or bad.
4.) Ask Him to Work
20 Now to him who is able to do far more abundantly than all that we ask or think, according to the power at work within us, 21 to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, forever and ever. Amen. Eph 3:20-21
Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. Philippians 4:5
So many times I’ve made the mistake of listing ways for God to answer my prayers. I’ve witnessed God’s hand this past year answer prayers or bring to light circumstances in ways I could not have imagined. His way is so much better than our way. Adhering to journaling my prayers and His answers so that I will be reminded one day during a future storm that His power and plan is greater than we could ever imagine.
There will soon be thunder in the distance heading your way. What’s your plan?